How About this?
December 28, 2009
Izaaaaaaaaah. Sorry I couldn't help your sis with the angkat barang thingy. :/ I'll see you soon ok? :)
Okay serious talk time. -.-
Before i start i would like to say... AMEK KAU!!! HAHAHHA.
First of all, I want to explain why i asked for a break. Few reason ah actually. HAHA. ok.
1) I don't love you like i did before.
2) You've changed.
3) Your attitude, getting from good to bad.
4) You're getting more demanding and protective.
5) You're not loving enough.
6) Sikit2 nak tension. -.-
6 reasons enough for you? Or you want 16? Ok 6 enough la i think. First i knew you, i thought you were like the nicest girl ever and i thought it would be nice to like cherish you. Well so i went with the flow. At first you were okay.. then just this year itself, you've made me angry like countless times. You've been to tensed and sensitive and also demanding. I told Syafiq the story and he also say that that you've become protective. Like, anta gegerl lain pun nak marah. Ok la, paham ah boleh marah. You dont have to be like sarcastic and tell me to send 10 girls home right! Wahh kanina sibei tak puas hati sia. HAHAHA.
When i'm with you, i tried my best to make you happy everyday!!!! But did you? ahhh, soalan bonus tau tu.. HAHAHA. They only way to make myself happy being with you was to make you happy. Pathetic pe aku. I swear i wasted like few hunder dollars only on you. Wait. Make it almost a thousand ah. -.- Nak bayar balek? Takpe2, ikhlas. :) And ni serious, not being sarcastic like you, please eh.
Being your so called boyfriend, of course la i want my girlfriend to be loving right. Not like so mundane and yawn and alah you get me la. At first, maseh boleh tahan ah. Then you got a lil bit better in showing your love then it stops there. Yawwwnnnn. You may be good with your words, but you aint good at showing your love girl, sorry.
You always want people to listen to you. Yo always want ME to listen to you. Listen to me cannot ah? And you always want to side your friends. Kutok sikit je marah. But when it really happens.. ah amek kau. Tau pun takot! Tu la tanak dgr ckp aku lagi.. HAHAHA. -.-
I read your blog and was like sad sikit ah. Sikit je tak banyak. But when you suddenly remove the picture and change the 'i miss you' to 'goodfuckenbye', itu buat darah aku naik la sia! Apa sia maksud tu.. Nak ckp gtu sini mari msg, tgk brani tak..Orang ada feeling2 sedih skejap tgk gambar, dia gi buang tu gambar. Kalau da marah, cakap. Takmo nak step ste-rong.
And how wouldn't i find a new girl when you give me this kind of perangai? you tell me huh..
To all those guys that are trying to chase her, korang semua take care ah sia. HAHAHA.
You always have a plan ahead for us. To get married and all. You want to be with me forever? You sure anot? Actually, at first i thought it was kind of possible. Until you really changed my perspective of you, then i was like, that's it ah. Cannot cannot.. This is another reason that i think was the purpose why i wanted the separation. You're too serious. Im only 17 and i dont have a stable job. Jangan cakap stable ah. Job pun takde la! HAHA. And you're already trying to think about all this.. -.-
I'm saying all this not to make you mad or sad or maybe you think im angry at you or something.. well i'm not. I care for you. HAHA. okok serious. I want you to change for the better, so other handsome boys wont leave you next time. If i dont say all this out, you wont change and you'll just keep hurting yourself girl.
Ever thought why i always lepak until malam and dont want to talk to you? Cause i feel that you only use me to get rid of your boredom and so i lepak because i dont want to layan you and i want you to leave me. But too bad i just had to be the one to do it.
After being said all this, do you regret the separation? ahh, no right? See, am i good or am i good. And how about if you ask me whether i'll ever take you back. Answer is no, whether you change or not. Because i'm sick of Pasir Ris. HAHAHA.
Okay im saying all this not because im perfect ah. I just wan't you to know what you're doing with your life. I'm sorry if i've hurt you in anyway through this post. I know i've done a lot of wrong doings towards you also and i really think it was the best decision i ever made to leave you. I'm sorry for everything okay. Sorry won't make a big of a difference but i hope time will heal everything. Just be careful of the next guy you date okay..
I'm expecting you to reply to this post. Confirm2, you will. Since you've got A LOT of good friends, i'll be expecting some of them to drop by and leave me a message. Whatever you guys want to say, say la. I dont really care you know. I only care whether you'e good looking anot. If you're not then i wont layan you. Thanks thanks. So i've got a message for you guys. Bring it on. I welcome you people with open legs. SUCK MY BALLS. :)
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Ahh, finally done. On a lighter note, i had fun at Liah's sister's wedding today. I missed them peeps a lot siaa. -.-. Too bad we only met for like an hour or so. sheesh.
And i've got a hot date today! Yay! ^^
GoodFUCKINGbye.
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December 26, 2009
Sentosa it was. We had fun. Very nice. Everyone was almost punctual. Haha. Met Azrah and Qim and Huda first at Hougang int then we proceeded to Vivoooo. Breakfast then waited for Fibo and Kalil and off to Sentosa.. Semua standby shades, tangkap handsome. HAHAHA. Swimmed, played with water and basically just chill.
Karaoke-ed after that. Kalil had to go work so couldnt join. We went home late and i managed to reach home before midnight. Phew.
2nd latest news of December. You know her, you don't know her? Good for you okay. Whatever you want to say, you say la. I also tak heran la. Mulut kamu per. Suke hati saya pe. Betul tak? Betul tu. HAHA.
Like what she states in her blog, it was very unexpected. Neither did i thought we would be together but yeah. And for the record, she's not the reason why i broke up. Don't know the full story? Then gossip like there's no tomorrow, because my name is Tating, and i said so. ^^
Do, Re, Mi. I miss you guyss. Syafiq, i'll see you tomorrow! And Hanuram, god knows when you'll be free to meet me. Haha.
Oh, i don't think i'll link anyone, so dont ask me to link you and its just fine of you don't link me. Thanks thanks.
Chiaoz.
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Miss me? Of course you did. Pfft. First and foremost, as you all know, Shila and I have decided to go out separate ways. Okay wait. Not Shila and I. It should be... I. Yes, me. I'm the bad guy, as always. Go read her blog. All the fingers are pointing at me. Thanks thanks. HAHA. Okok, serious time. I'm letting her go because i dont want to hurt her ANYMORE. ahhh, itu dia. She may or may not understand why i'm doing this to her but soon ok, soon, you'll get me. Actually you should thank me for doing this. I'm giving other guys a chance to get to know you, giving back your freedom and c'mon, we're only 16/17 and you want to go all so serious on us. -.-" Yela, sedih tu sedih, tapi kalau sudah di jodoh, mane mau lari broz?
I'm quite happy that i've finally let her go. Even though she's sad, one day she'll thank me, once she finds the rightful guy for her, which is not me. Someone better looking and not so much as irritating as me and more of a gentleman than a bad boy. Heh.
Although i must say that it's been quite a ride these nineteen months. Right? We've been through quite a lot to say that we know each other inside out. And because of that, i feel that it's quite impossible for me to be with you. Memories will stay, tears are shed, anger will be shown but you just have to be strong girl. I always say you don't listen to me. Well, realy you don't. And i'm still kinda pissed off with that. HAHA. Well actually nobody listens to me even when i'm right. They just can't trust this small boy's face. erm hmm. But you always have your point for not listening to me. You're a smart girl Shila, i know that. Just be careful of em' bad boys. Remember what i told you about good looking and not good looking guys? The difference between them? Yes, remember that as well. And remember that not all boys are the same. In fact, they are all different. It's how you see them to be the same that's what make everyone go.. "Oh, all boys are the same, cheesepie." You get me?
Okay what else? I want to say sorry for everything that we've gone through. Should have let you go earlier knowing all this were going to happen. Sorry for my harsh words and actions and unknowingly hurting you. Sorry for always making you cry day and night.. Sorry for being such a bad boyfriend. I guess i'm the worst right? Suspect kuat ah. Sorry for cheating your feelings. Sorry, for ever loving you.
I'm not angry with you over anything. Even if people were to tag me right now saying harsh things about me and you and all, i wouldn't mind. I would be happy that they did. Because you just proved me that you have friends that care for you. :) And i'd be happy because i know i made the right decision in letting you go. In the years to come, i'll see ya around and i'll smile. We're still friends right? And don't worry, i won't do anything stupid.
Help me tell Ipah and Kikin to take good care of themselves alright? And jaga Ibu baik2. :)
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I can't upload pictures, so next time yah.
Chiaoz.
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